That call #myangelbaby

As my phone rang i could see the name private number come up. I just knew who it would be. I answered and the man told me who he was and as i expected it was the man from the mortuary. He expressed his sympathy and told me my angel was ready to take home. It was sooner than i thought. 

So know we need to get things organised for the buriel of parker. I dont like saying funeral so i say buriel  


Today #loss#babyloss#miscarraige#lonely#feelings

All i want to do is lay in bed with the duvet over my head. I feel so lonely its like i can feel my body being over taken with this strong feeling. I wish i could just say to my friends or family why havnt u messaged me or come and seen me. I lost a baby im not a monster.

I know people dont always know what to say but anything would be nice. Its like once people say sorry for your loss thats it and when people say if theres anything i can do?? Like really what can u do nothing u wont even talk to me. 

I hate the world loss as my baby died i didnt loss the baby. 

This is just my venting as i need to get it out.


It was as if the world had stood still and everything was in slow motion waiting holding my breath hoping everything would be ok but then it happened….. rachel i am so sorry there is no heartbeat my perfect angel now an angel baby. 

Last week we had our 9 week scan and found out we lost our baby our hearts broke only 2 weeks before we saw our perfect baby with a strong heartbeat how can things just change. The next day i got admitted to hospital and passed our angel the day after being admitted. Hardest thing of my life. 

I feel so alone at the moment . 

We named our angel parker

#babyloss #misscarraige #angelbaby